i am the youngest of six kids
my mom kind of did everything for me growing up
she is the best <3
i have always been very loved and some may called it very spoiled
oops
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i have always been best friends with boys
i have always been more comfortable around a group of guys rather than a group of girls
that made a lot of people jealous
i grew up playing soccer
when i was 9 i was recruited to play for a U9 competition soccer team
i made it and i was the only girl in the entire league
the whole season i had several assists
i got teased a lot
and pushed a lot
but i learned to push back
i scored one goal
the goalie cried and pretended that i stepped on his fingers
he certainly didn't like that
because a little blonde girl with two french braids scored on him
my coach liked that
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i started playing on a rec soccer team with girls called the silver bullets
we were decent
but most of the girls were still scared of the ball
i was fast and pretty aggressive so i scored a lot
most of the girls didn't like that
i got bored pretty fast and my mom did too
so i quit
my coach really didn't like that
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she told me to start taking gymnastics
i was decent and caught on really quickly
but i was terrified of the beam and the vault
when i was 13 i hit my back really hard on the vault
i competed as a level 4 but my tumbling and bar ability was easily level 5
but i couldn't do a cartwheel on the beam nor a front handspring on the vault
so i quit
a lot of people didn't like that
then i started tumbling
then my coach saw my potential and told me to try out for cheer
i didn't want to because i did sixth grade cheer and was terrible
i didn't make the cheer squad in seventh grade
it was so embarrassing
i started cheering on a competition team
i had an awesome coach that really believed in me
she worked with me more than others
i was really good at tumbling
a lot of girls didn't like that
i competed on the lower level team because i didn't have the cheer skills yet
in a year i excelled because of my coaches and support from my mom
i learned a lot and worked really hard for my spot
the next year i made the level 4 team
a lot of girls were mad about that
our team was really successful and we got first at nationals in vegas
our team was called platinum and we got cool jackets
the other team didn't like that
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in high school i was the girl that always had a boyfriend
i somehow convinced nate w to like me and we dated for like 9 months or something
we broke up and i went psycho over my first heartbreak
it took me a long time to get over it
then the summer before my junior year i got asked on my first date by THEE tanner thelin a week after i turned 16
my best friend didn't like that
then i started dating tanners best friend, nate a
tanner didn't like that
then nate and i broke up
pretty soon after tanner and i started dating
nate didn't like that
tanner and i dated the rest of the school year
we were pretty cute and had a lot of fun
we broke up and it was pretty bad
a lot of my friends didn't like that
we kissed again that summer when we were broken up
our friends didn't like that
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my senior year i started dating tanner e
and most people didn't like that
he wasn't the greatest kid
then i got to know him better and really liked him
a lot of people said i changed him
his mom really liked that
we dated my whole senior year and had a blast #coupleoftheyear
we broke up
and a lot of people hated that
we got in a big fight and i hated him for like a week
it was really awkward all summer and at his farewell before his mission
we left on weird terms
i didn't like that
then a few months in i wrote him a letter and he wrote me back
then we kind of got back together after that and he was my missionary
everyone liked that
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i went on my mission
a lot of people liked that
tanner and i kind of stopped talking because we got busy on our missions
we didn't really like that but we understood
tanner was my best friend and biggest supporter through it all
i really appreciated that
we both loved our missions
we both learned a lot
we ended up coming home a week apart
that freaked me out because we hadn't talked in awhile
i didn't like that
i saw him the week he got home randomly at a concert
he gave me a high five and it was so awkward
definitely didn't like that
we didn't talk until thanksgiving
we went on a date to SLC and relived all our high school memories
i liked that
we kissed again
then we talked about getting back together
but it was confusing and really fast
the timing was wrong
but we kept talking like friends
and i liked that
then i moved to logan and he moved to provo
we didn't like that
then we decided to go our separate ways
i didn't like it but in the long run it was for the better
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one of my roommates hated me from the beginning
i still have no idea why
we both have strong personalities but in different ways
we shared a bathroom and apparently i left out my q-tips?
she didn't like that
i moved her loofah to her shower basket
she didn't like that
i ate her cheerios when i was throwing up all over the bathroom because they were on the counter
she didn't like that
i used her charger but it didn't work and she said i broke it
i bought her a new one just in case and apologized
i got yelled at a lot
i didn't like that
i cried a lot and felt super bad
i didn't like that
but my daddy always taught me to stand up for myself
so i did
she didn't like that
but then i realized . . .
not everyone is going to like you and that is 100% okay
but it is ALWAYS better and easier to
1. be kind
2. be forgiving
3. tell the truth
also something i learned big time on my mission is to pick your battles
sometimes my roommate bothered me too, but you know what?
bringing up to her that i hated the messes she left in the kitchen, how she took over the entire living room, how her sister rang our doorbell 500 times all hours of the day, how her siblings were soooo loud and woke me up one saturday morning and so on and so forth
i didn't think she was worth the fight
so i didn't say anything
because bottom line . . .
everybody does something is that going to annoy somebody
but it's best to pick your battles
and freaking listen to elsa and let it go
it's not fair to bully your roommates and make it to the point that i was scared to go out of my room because i knew i would get yelled at
again
and when i begged her to stop and she wouldn't
and i started balling my eyes out
and she kept yelling at me
and i tried to be civil
and she kept yelling
so i stood up for myself
and said some things i probably shouldn't have
but sometimes you just have to realize that not everyone is going to like you and that is okay
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this was the hardest, most heartbreaking, stressful, frustrating semester of my life
i had so many lows
and so many highs
so many great friends
and so many new friends
and experiences
and im grateful my daddy taught me to stand up for myself
sometimes you have to fight for what you want
because of it i got my regents scholarship back
most importantly it is important to work hard
and have courage
and be kind
cinderella knows whats up
rant over
just remember that
not everyone is going to like you and that is okay
* mic drop *
lol
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